2.12.2016

Chronic Illness and Disability in Erotica

Career Sidelined by Chronic Illness...

Yes, that was me five years ago when I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis. 

I turned inward. Facing the devastating diagnosis I felt lesser, defeated, pushed aside...
In that moment I learned a valuable lesson from my Loyal Readers because once I stopped producing books on a regular basis I started hearing from my committed and concerned followers.

Reading their notes and emails I learned many of my readers are house-bound and chronically ill and by conversing with them I realized I wasn't useless or throw-away because of a label. My readers who so compassionately shared their stories with me to lift me up define who they are every day and if they can do it and still have a light sometimes sarcastic take on living with Chronic Illness and still be Sexual Beings, so could I...

That information combined with the knowledge that almost all of my personal friends are dealing with a chronic mental or physical illness made me start thinking about erotica and asking if our lives are so filled with the interruptions of illness, why isn't it  represented in erotica?

And now I am back!

Since those first dark years spent trying to get a diagnosis, I have found medication, which helped to normalize my life as much as possible and allowed me to return to my career as an erotica writer...

I wrote LOVERS with a woman in a wheelchair who suffered with childhood into adulthood rheumatoid arthritis. What seemed like such a small thing to me was suddenly a big deal to that titles original publisher who insisted I take out the wheelchair because it didn't belong in erotica. At which point I had a conversation with my publisher and shared a list of bdsm play parties and etceteras specifically targeted toward the disabled. I also chose to explain my own experiences because I am not a novice in dealing with chronic illness and became even more determined to "normalize" chronic illness in erotica because having to receive medication on a schedule or being confined to a chair does not make the person a lesser human being. 

Come'on... haven't we moved beyond treating people with mental and physical disabilities like children?
Apparently not.
Disability in erotica is hard to find because it confronts the idea a disabled person is nonsexual, which made it a taboo topic for far too long...

I am personally offended by that attitude!
I've always heard to "write what you know" because you can real and emotional layers impossible without having experienced something first hand. With that in mind...

I understand Chronic Illness ...
I understand BDSM on a 24/7/365 basis ...
I understand polyamory...
I understand bisexuality

I have life experiences in all four, why not mash-em-up? Enter the Van Zant Series...

To boot...

Why not have a Chronically-Ill Kick-Ass Heroine? 

And that's exactly what I'm trying to do in my Van Zant series by tackling all four points in spades, not by having the "token disabled secondary character my main character meets for lunch" but by creating main characters who are dealing with major medical problems but who are able to continue to love, laugh, play because that's what chronically ill people do every single day.

I feel confident in being able to write their stories.

Having personally played with a chair confined girlfriend and finding the experience amazing, I am able to approach my main character Alyssa who has MS and is chair bound from a positive reference point and use the lessons I garnered from "Anne" like learning to shift the focus of sex from "what makes me feel good" to "where can I touch you so that you feel good?" 

Few people know my first husband suffered from bipolar disorder complicated by schizophrenia or that he became a quadriplegic during our marriage because I never talk about him and for twenty years I have kept those memories tamped down. Recent events have brought the emotions from that time in my life to the surface and having a character with bipolar disorder was the perfect place to deal with my conflicted emotions. The side note being I have a much lesser and more manageable form of Bi-Polar, which allows me to create huge volumes of work during my manic phases is only that I am soooo thankful for my manic phases for that very bonus.

With Bipolar Disorder, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, and Attention Deficit Disorder being introduced as a major players in my character Alexandra Van Zant's stories, I have really been forced to face both my present and past demons... every day I remind myself... write what I know... because I know that my experience may not be another's experience...

Reviews like this one that actually talks about how I have handled Alexandra's medical conditions as part of her characterization let me know I am on the right track and to keep going.


The series gets progressively hotter as it goes along, from Simmering to super HOT so I hope you will read Alexandra's stories and let me know what you think :)


(additional works in progress)




2.02.2016

CONSEQUENCES OF THE BIG MISTAKES -The Romance Review TOP PICK


The Van Zant Siblings...... Featuring Alexandra

OFFICIAL REVIEW
 Book Reviewed by Delta (reviewer)
[ Review Posted: Feb 03, 2016 ] - See all my reviews
I honestly can not even imagine living with someone like Alexandra's character. This book opened up my eyes to an often joked about mental disorder and just how painful it can be to both the sufferer and their loved ones.

Black and blue after surviving an attack from a killer in Montana, the world's leading geneticist Dr. Alexandra Van Zant is now back in Cincinnati, engaged to Patrick "Gabe" Gowan and trying not to remember how fucking hot their ménage a quartre was last week with Gabe's mates, Conor Larkin and Jonathon O'Donnell. But there are madmen still after Xandra, and Gabe, Conor and Patrick will do anything to keep her safe. With her bipolar disorder, OCD, ADHD and control issues, her ridiculously intelligent brain just doesn't ever turn off, making it difficult for anyone to try and help her stay safe (from both madmen and herself). Sex is the one time where her mind is empty of the insanity, and when she was with all three men, it was the best, most blissful and mindless experience of her life. But sex has to take a backseat when bodies start dropping all around her and threats on her life multiply. It will take all three men to keep this wild woman alive so she can save the world.

CONSEQUENCES OF THE BIG MISTAKES is the 3rd book in the Van Zant Siblings series and is best read in sequence. I made the mistake of jumping in blind, and while I eventually caught up, I did feel quite lost for awhile and vowed to go back and pick up the first two books. So first, the fact that this is a MMMF ménage was what made me say a big YES PLEASE to CONSEQUENCES OF THE BIG MISTAKES, but what keep me flipping the pages furiously was the great storyline. Xandra was a unique and fascinating character. I've never read such an in-depth description of the highs and lows of a bipolar in a manic episode, which was fascinating (and so scary/sad). It truly was like watching a train wreck, Xandra was so out of control and all over the place emotionally that I simply couldn't stop reading.

Gabe was incredibly understanding, having known her since childhood and how to deal with her severe swings. Their relationship was interesting too; Gabe encouraged her wild sexuality to come out to play, happily encouraging a repeat ménage performance. She wants the four of them to be a permanent foursome, living together and raising her goddaughter.

I was a little surprised by her intense and selfish reaction to the men being together sexually, but I can't say that I blame her too much, since her fiancé neglected to share the bisexual side of himself prior to Xandra seeing him and Jonathon balls deep in one another! The sex, dear Xenu the sex. It was incredible, I wanted to be a fly on the wall when they all got busy!! I love how Xandra gets something unique from each of the men, and them from each other. It was kind of weird for Xandra to be so enamored and needy for Conor even though Gabe is the love of her life and fiancé. Likewise, most of the time Jonathon felt like an afterthought. I'm interested to see how the three of them play out in the next book in this series. This was a long but fast-paced read, and I will most certainly be going back to check out the first two in this suspenseful, crazy and extremely sexy series while I await the next offering!

Bottom Line: This book isn't for the faint of heart. Alexandra's numerous mental problems are really in your face and not glossed over, nor are the messier emotional parts of the ménage they all enter into. I absolutely freakin LOVED it!
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12.31.2015

2016 is coming!

Happy New Year 2016

I want to wish all my readers many happy moments, many loving moments, and maybe a few kinky moments because what is life if not an opportunity to step out of our comfort zones and do something a little different...

I love you all and thank you for reading my novels... send me a note and don't be shy! What did you love, what did you hate? What triggered your imagination and what pushed you from your comfort zone? I really want to know!

XOXO
Roxy



New Titles Written in 2015 

  • Surviving the Big Mistakes
  • Conquering the BIG Mistakes
  • Learning from the BIG Mistakes
  • Shibari Presence
  • Learning to Breathe
  • Learning to Breathe Again

Writing Planned for 2016 

  • Revelations of the BIG Mistakes 
  • Submissive 
  • Secondary Partners 
  • Shibari Christmas

12.26.2015

5 STARS for Van Zant Series Books

I am so excited!
So much news to share! Since my Van Zant Siblings series has been introduced...

Both Surviving the Big Mistakes and Consequences of the BIG Mistakes have received 5 STARS from readers at Goodreads! And to be honest I've been holding my breath following several years hiatus while I battled the disease trying to destroy my body... so 5 STARS! YAY!

Alexandra Van Zant and her men are my first ménage a quatre!!!!

So excited... as the series progresses BDSM, Shibari, and polyamory jealousy and resolution are explored.

The first (new) two books are on special at Loose-Id 
for a limited time so get Surviving BIG Mistakes now for $5.59 
and Consequences of the BIG Mistakes for $4.47!!



And....
NEW COVER ART for Learning From The BIG Mistakes!
Available January 11

11.25.2015

HAPPY THANKSGIVING

Happy Thanksgiving! 

I am so full of gratitude for all of my loyal readers...

Your texts, messages, and emails have kept me going as RA stole my life for awhile and gave me the right encouragement to get my fingers typing again! 

THANK YOU 

So over the holiday when you find you are too full for a single bite more... and you have enjoyed more family time than a person has the right to... and the kids are finally tucked in (whew)... I hope you will give yourself some you time and maybe, just maybe you will want to meet Alexandra and her three men 

Love you all!

Book1: Alexandra                                             Book2: Alexandra

             


11.23.2015

Meet Alexandra Van Zant

Van Zant Sibling Series

Meet Alexandra



Alexandra's Book 3
(Coming Jan 12)

Meet Jessica

Consequences of the BIG Mistakes

It's Final Here: Preorder until Tuesday 11/24

Meet Alexandra's Three Men 

GABE
CONOR
JONATHON



Geneticist, Alexandra Van Zant has proven again and again she can foil the madman intent on destroying humanity. She can survive multiple attempts on her life. However, this sexual novice is unprepared for the sexual needs of two dominants battling for her heart and submission, or the submissive hoping she can learn to dominate him.

She's just getting comfortable with the men in her life when POTUS gets involved, making her his science advisor and insisting she add a little respectability to her unusual and highly publicized lifestyle by moving up the wedding date. And then things get really complicated. First, Alexandra learns Patrick “Gabe” Gowan, her primary and betrothed, has been in an on-again, off-again Dominant/submissive relationship with Jonathon O’Donnell. Then, she admits she's fallen in love with Conor Larkin, the other Dominant Gabe shares Jonathon with. It isn’t pretty.


When Alexandra is attacked with a biological toxin and believes she's dying, the decisions she makes will change the game for everyone. For good.

10.26.2015

Surviving the BIG Mistakes

Conquering the BIG Mistakes is coming Nov 24!
Alexandra Van Zant, Patrick "Gabe" Gowan, Conor, Larkin, Jonathon O'Donnaell dance between flirting, jealous, and fucking a lot as the menage a quatre roles are defined...


Surviving the BIG Mistakes is now available!

Alexandra Van Zant, geneticist and beautiful mess, has discovered a huge mistake: one of her colleagues has engineered an extremely lethal hybrid disease codenamed Extinction Event, and even worse he's fled, leaving her to deal with it.

Worse turns life-threatening for Alexandra when a wealthy environmentalist needs the virus to bring about his vision of Utopia. He'll stop at nothing to hunt her down. With no destination in mind and only an urgent email from her brother to guide her, Alexandra runs to the mountains of Montana--a backwater town where no one will know her.


She makes another, huge mistake in drowning her sorrows in a ménage a quatre with her childhood friend Gabe. The Irish Pub owner Gabe has loved Alexandra since he was twelve, and he's determined to stand by her no matter what comes. But when the bodies start dropping like flies will Alexandra trust him to help her survive?
Buy at Loose-Id

Buy on KINDLE at Amazon


10.15.2015

NEW RELEASE!

Surviving the BIG Mistakes is now available!

Alexandra Van Zant, geneticist and beautiful mess, has discovered a huge mistake: one of her colleagues has engineered an extremely lethal hybrid disease codenamed Extinction Event, and even worse he's fled, leaving her to deal with it.

Worse turns life-threatening for Alexandra when a wealthy environmentalist needs the virus to bring about his vision of Utopia. He'll stop at nothing to hunt her down. With no destination in mind and only an urgent email from her brother to guide her, Alexandra runs to the mountains of Montana--a backwater town where no one will know her.


She makes another, huge mistake in drowning her sorrows in a ménage a quatre with her childhood friend Gabe. The Irish Pub owner Gabe has loved Alexandra since he was twelve, and he's determined to stand by her no matter what comes. But when the bodies start dropping like flies will Alexandra trust him to help her survive?
Buy at Loose-Id

Buy on KINDLE at Amazon


The next book in the series:
CONQUERING THE BIG MISTAKES has been accepted for NOVEMBER release

The third book featuring the menage:
LEARNING FROM THE BIG MISTAKES has been submitted...

as has a holiday book featuring the menage a quatre and rope!

SHIBARI CHRISTMAS

9.21.2015

YOU'RE INVITED!!

4 years ago today this book released.. 
I need cake.. it's like a birthday, right?



9.10.2015

Surviving the BIG Mistakes - Release Date SEPT 22

COMING SOON

I am soooo in LOVE and LUST with Alexandra and Gabe...
Get ready to SURVIVE(ing) the BIG MISTAKES!!

Alexandra is a BEAUTIFUL MESS...
OCD ...
ADD ...
Genius ...
Bi-Polar ...
Talking too hot to handle in the bedroom, and too crazy to get a handle on in every day terms...
"..., a single bit of advice: never, ever, use my relationship with sanity as a tool or a weapon against me. That is a mistake I promise you will regret.”
Until she rediscovers her best mate from her childhood... Gabe Gowan

Dark, Mysterious (how many Also Known As identities can one man have?)
Dangerous...
Dominating...
"I'm not a sadist, love." (Oh, really....?)

BUY NOW (after Sept22)





Son Lux - "Easy" (Official Video)

Beautiful bondage suspensions...

 Inspired serious sadness though...


**as far as song enjoyment, I really enjoy the LORDE + SON LUX mix

8.20.2015

LOVERS NOW AVAILABLE

SEX... BDSM... POLYAMORY

Do I really need to say more?